I’m not even going to bother asking if you know about those times when you’re casually browsing Facebook or Twitter and you see something that makes your spine shiver with sadness. The paranoia at someone’s status or a wallpost. Or the worst of the worst, when some you like is tagged in a picture looking far too close to someone else. Or the worst of the worst of the worst, when some you like is tagged in more than one picture looking far too close to someone else. Or the complete heartbreaker. When someone you like is in the background of a picture that they’re not even tagged in, looking far too close to someone else.
I have to laugh at this. I know it happens. I swear I must have been a victim before. I might be a victim of this right now, and it has led me to have to write about it. But victims we all are. Our own inability not to look for sadness makes me laugh. Because don’t get it twisted. When you go browsing, you want to find something that is going to make you sad. You’re not looking for a picture of nothing going on. You’re not looking for a picture where you can’t create some kind of story in your head that is going to make you upset. So you’re actually looking for sadness!
I know you all love when I do ask you if you ‘know about those times’. So here goes.
Who knows about those times, when you’re on Facebook or Twitter & you see a status or a Tweet from the person you like, and you think it’s about you. Or maybe deep down you know it’s not about you, but you want it to be. Why do you want it to be? Because your status’s and tweets are always directed at them? But in your heart, you know that their lovey dovey moany status is about someone else. And that can hurt. Can’t it? You tell me.
Or those times, when you see on Facebook or Twitter that the person you like has actually mentioned the persons name they like in their status or Tweet. And you sit there, looking all glum, and just think ‘THAT IS SO CRINGE’. Then you think to yourself, actually, you do that in your status’s & tweets about them. And it is cringe.
You ones hiding behind a pillow reading this are the people that know what I’m talking about. When you have one stupid off the cuff joke or moment with the person you like. AND BANG. It goes in your status. They probably don’t even think your conversation or moment was that big of a deal. But because it means so much to you, it gets blown out of all proportion and before you know it, you’ve gone and written a bloody status or tweet about it.
I know, it must be hurtful sometimes, to think that you’re on Facebook chat, or texting the person you like, and they’re taking ages to reply. As you sit there, having boring, pointless chats with other people, you really just want the person you like to message you back. Then you realise, to the person you like, you’re just the boring pointless chat that they’re having, and they’re sitting at home waiting for the person they like to reply to them.
It’s a never ending circle of sadness, and craziness. I can see it. And I grin. We all have those people who we know like us. And we keep them around, and we will text them and humour them. While we’re getting the same treatment from the person we like. We act like a prick to the one who loves us and we love the one who acts like a prick to us.
It’s complete and utter madness. But it is life and we wouldn’t have any other way. We would be bored, if there were no emotions. If we were never sad, then how are we going to know when we’re happy? Everyone does the same thing. We all play those games. ‘Lets use the person who likes us to make the person we like jealous’. They’re not going to be jealous. They don’t like you in that way. You’re the one they use, to make the person they like jealous. It’s that never ending circle of sadness and craziness. You’re in it!
You can use Twitter & Facebook as your sanctuary to let your emotions out through status’s and song lyrics that relate to your situation. But Facebook & Twitter are dangerous. They allow you to create a personality for yourself. You can become the person that you’re not. Even this blog, has turned me into not the man I am. People read it and think that this is me. It’s just words written down. It’s not a person. It’s not a soul.
Who knows about those times, when you care about somebody, and you think, as long as you live you could never care about someone as much as you do them. Then one day, it changes. Somebody walks into your life, and does something or says something that makes you happier than you ever were before. Then that’s the time, when you think, I could never ever ever care, about someone more than I do this person. Until you realise that this person doesn’t feel the same about you. What you going to do now? Surely if you couldn’t possibly care about someone more than them, then who ever you meet from now on, will always be second best. But then you remember. You thought that once before didn’t you? You’re always going to be wrong. Until the day when you’re not waiting for a reply on Facebook, or sitting at home holding your phone wondering why there’s no text message. Until the day when you haven’t got time to realise that other people like you, and until the day when you realise you haven’t been browsing Facebook or Twitter because you’ve been far too busy being happy.
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